Luca Guadagnino's Suspiria (Amazon, 10.26) has brought distress and left me glum and conflicted. I'm torn by my admiration and affection for a great filmmaker and a wonderful human being and my...well, my troubled responses to this strange detour film. It's left me in a bad, self-doubting place, and as wimpy as this sounds I think my reactions to Suspiria are probably best left alone.

Am I chickening out? Yes, I am -- sorry. But this is what happens when you know a guy who's made a striking, complex film that's put you in a weird place.

When I think of Luca I think of his kindness ...

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